Why Did I Say Goodbye

Why did I say goodbye?

I never say that, as if I’d never be back.

I hated to leave her there, with doubt in the air.

The devil is good at what he does, brewing mistrust.

He sunk me so low, when I had so much hope.

I said it confidently, told her I’d never leave.

Why does he do this to me: attack me in my sleep?

I wanted to relay, that nothing ever changed.

This isn’t how it should be; I never want to leave.

So why did I say goodbye?

don't leave

don’t leave, she told me,
as she tugged at my arm.
I can still feel her heat,
as she held me close,
refusing to let me go.
don’t leave, she told me;
I don’t believe I did.
my body sits here,
but my heart stays there,
drowning in your care.
here I am in the cold,
clothed by memories of time well spent.
my lips still tingle with the feel of our last kiss;
our hug goodbye is forever branded on my skin.
your sweet words stay fresh in my mind,
as I dream of when next we’ll meet.
don’t leave , she told me,
as she subdued my mind,
and conquered my day,
and enslaved my heart.

Home In Your Arms

Peace like a dream, as you throw your arms around me

Surrounded by your walls, the place where I belong

Speak to me; immerse me in your gentle caress

Touch me; your soothing lips calm my restless spirit

I feel your heat filling me like the summer sun

Your embrace is the ground where my happiness blooms

Your affections are the mortar that build this home

Can winter sorrows persist in your warm presence?

Doubt is the doorway locked shut by your charity

My soul is freed by your ever welcoming gaze

Your voice echoes through the halls of my memory

My mind is ever filled with glimpses of your face

Are you only a dream, this impossible bliss?

This must be where I belong, my home in your arms

This Feeling

I hate this feeling. 

This rumbling inside of me, like fire, it burns deeply. 

I want to jump,

   to run,

     to shout,

 but you’re not here. 

Going over and over it in my head, what I plan to do, what I plan to say. 

But the chaos in my head is only confusion.  

I cannot wait. 

This feeling will consume me. 

Here we are together; I don’t know what to do. 

The fire burns ferociously.  It blazes and leaps out;

 the heat is suffocating. 

It needs a way out, but how? 

  What can I say to relay my emotions to you? 

    How can I make you feel this fire inside of me? 

My body is a cage. 

  My soul wishes to reach out, but my arms stay weighted down. 

    My soul wishes to scream to you, but my mouth stays fastened shut. 

I can’t keep this to myself. 

Time passes with you and I realize,

 the pain is gone. 

Your refreshing smile cools the fire. 

My restlessness is swept away;

 I am content in your presence. 

  How long must we stay like this? 

    Will I ever have more? 

I don’t care.  I could stay like this forever. 

    Tangled together with you, I gain the strength I needed, but not an answer. 

  But tangled together with you, I find peace. 

I love this feeling.