Tanneese

Dearest Tanneese Tanisha Briscoe,

How have you enraptured me so?  Thoughts of you flood my mind; I am blinded by your sight.  You are magnificent. How have you stolen my heart?  You fill my heart with gladness with the sounds of your laughter.  Every move you make impresses me.  Your every expression affects me with so much force.  You move me.  Your voice endlessly inhabits my brain.  It is a graceful flute, full of gentle youth.  Musically sweet words, speak to me.  Sing your enchanting melody in my ear.  Look to me, my love, with your peaceful gaze.  I love to see those two big bright jewels.  I can’t help but stare into your amber eyes, at your chocolate lips.  What I wouldn’t do for a chocolate kiss.  Raining kisses onto your vibrant flesh is my undying obsession.  The warmth of your cheek against my own pacifies my mind.  How I love the feel of your icy touch, lightly dancing about my body, exciting me, drawing me ever closer to your burning skin.  I take in the heat, which reminds me that I’m no longer alone, but enclosed in your arms.  To hold you, to be held by, you; nothing in this earth can replace the sensation.  Where there is only you and I, there is where I desire to be, immersed in joyous youthful exchanges and endless play.  Your elegance, your delicacy powerfully pulls me in; I cannot escape you.  I am totally and completely captured by you. 

Forever yours, with love and affection,

From he who adores you,

Lloyd Nugent Gibson

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Why Did I Say Goodbye

Why did I say goodbye?

I never say that, as if I’d never be back.

I hated to leave her there, with doubt in the air.

The devil is good at what he does, brewing mistrust.

He sunk me so low, when I had so much hope.

I said it confidently, told her I’d never leave.

Why does he do this to me: attack me in my sleep?

I wanted to relay, that nothing ever changed.

This isn’t how it should be; I never want to leave.

So why did I say goodbye?

don't leave

don’t leave, she told me,
as she tugged at my arm.
I can still feel her heat,
as she held me close,
refusing to let me go.
don’t leave, she told me;
I don’t believe I did.
my body sits here,
but my heart stays there,
drowning in your care.
here I am in the cold,
clothed by memories of time well spent.
my lips still tingle with the feel of our last kiss;
our hug goodbye is forever branded on my skin.
your sweet words stay fresh in my mind,
as I dream of when next we’ll meet.
don’t leave , she told me,
as she subdued my mind,
and conquered my day,
and enslaved my heart.

Home In Your Arms

Peace like a dream, as you throw your arms around me

Surrounded by your walls, the place where I belong

Speak to me; immerse me in your gentle caress

Touch me; your soothing lips calm my restless spirit

I feel your heat filling me like the summer sun

Your embrace is the ground where my happiness blooms

Your affections are the mortar that build this home

Can winter sorrows persist in your warm presence?

Doubt is the doorway locked shut by your charity

My soul is freed by your ever welcoming gaze

Your voice echoes through the halls of my memory

My mind is ever filled with glimpses of your face

Are you only a dream, this impossible bliss?

This must be where I belong, my home in your arms

This Feeling

I hate this feeling. 

This rumbling inside of me, like fire, it burns deeply. 

I want to jump,

   to run,

     to shout,

 but you’re not here. 

Going over and over it in my head, what I plan to do, what I plan to say. 

But the chaos in my head is only confusion.  

I cannot wait. 

This feeling will consume me. 

Here we are together; I don’t know what to do. 

The fire burns ferociously.  It blazes and leaps out;

 the heat is suffocating. 

It needs a way out, but how? 

  What can I say to relay my emotions to you? 

    How can I make you feel this fire inside of me? 

My body is a cage. 

  My soul wishes to reach out, but my arms stay weighted down. 

    My soul wishes to scream to you, but my mouth stays fastened shut. 

I can’t keep this to myself. 

Time passes with you and I realize,

 the pain is gone. 

Your refreshing smile cools the fire. 

My restlessness is swept away;

 I am content in your presence. 

  How long must we stay like this? 

    Will I ever have more? 

I don’t care.  I could stay like this forever. 

    Tangled together with you, I gain the strength I needed, but not an answer. 

  But tangled together with you, I find peace. 

I love this feeling. 

Alone With the Rain

freezing rain falls again
walking alone this lonely road
stings of the icy cold my body screams
run run escape this pouring rain
to where do I flee in this barren scene
when nothing can save me from this pain
all the miles this endless trek
drowning in a sae of want
my heat is gone surrender to the cold
the water is rising give in to the flow
spending my time with the pestering rain
wrapped in the arms of its jealous embrace

Hiding Wings

Angel, you are too wonderful,
You must be hiding wings.

Heaven must have blessed your mother when they made you.
Did your father know what you’d become when he named you…
Angel

So my admiration of the artistry,
Of the hand of God through your heredity…
Grows, with every glimpse of you.

Every brush stroke that painted your beautiful features,
Every carving that sculpted your delicate figure,
It captures me, inspires me.

Your voice like music,
Enchants my mind…
And appeases my soul.

Are you really this beautiful, or is it only me, I wonder.
But I know that every time I see your face, it amazes me.
But I know that every time I see you smile it enlivens me.

Angel, you are too wonderful,
You must be hiding wings.

Far From Here

I want to go far away from here,
And I don’t want to come back.
I’m never fit’n in, the mood just isn’t right
Soul is locked tight, ‘cuz my flow is just dribblin
And my hopes are all broken, fate, please just stop withholdin
Let go and let my dreams be real, I just wanna feel
Something more than just misery, I need something new
Like I wanna be with you, But it seems I just can’t do
Anything but screw up, maybe I’m just a screw up
I think I’ll just give up, and go with something new
Someone please sooth the weariness, beat back the loneliness
Can’t forget about the guiltiness, give me something new.
Take me far away from here, I won’t turn back.
To the same old problems and the same barren life.
To the same old faces and the same misplaced being.
The same old games and the same pained fight.
Keep me far away from here, I just want something new.

Dark Angel

03/04/06

Thoughts of you trouble my soul
For I long to have you with me
I long to please you, to please me
I long to see your face again
Many times thoughts of you run through my mind
They fill me with joy as I imagine your company
But joy soon turns to sadness
For it troubles me to realize
I must wait so long to see you face to face
To listen to your voice in person
I would find satisfaction in merely talking to you
But at every opportunity, I am speechless
It pains me to have nothing to say to you
But what can I say?
I always try my best to try and please you
But all attempts eventually fail
I would do anything, give anything
Just to be with you, for you to be with me
But I am trapped here
In this prison of mine
Its torture, this life
This lonely life I live
But even if I had a million friends
I'd still be lonely without you
Why must I want what I cannot have?
You are as a priceless jewel that I can only admire
You are as a shining angel
Yet longing for you drives me further into the darkness
And though it pains me to,
I'll still think of you,
My Dark Angel

To Natasha Rachell Williams

Sonnet of Death

04/21/06

At night I sleep in dread of the morrow
But the uncarring Sun ends my slumber
My dreams depart and I am left alone
To endure Life to which I'm encumbered
'Tis this Life who is my true tormentor
Its curses rain upon me more each breath
From this curse I don't have a protector
And so I rejoice at the sight of Death
For Death is the thing that can end this curse
Many fear Death I gladly welcome it
Great ones and small ones all fear Death the worst
I long for the day that might find it
And I'll think of with every breath
The curse of Life and the blessing of Death

Shade: Moon in My Night of Sorrow

03/03-04/06

You are my Moon, as I wait for the Dawn
But to end my Night of Sorrow, it never comes
This night torments me and shields me from the light
Darkness swarms about me and steals away my joy
Its peaceful warmth but a memory, my Sun has abandoned me
My troubled soul longs for Sun, but now I am left alone
But you, O Moon, bring me its light and show me glorious Sun
You return my source of hapiness, you relieve my weary soul

To Sade Rowe